Just testing new windows live writer. I dunno if i like it or not yet but eh we’ll see. Nothing very exciting happening in my life. Just had my normal wednesday off uni :)

It's been a fairly crazy week. This was my first week back at uni after my break, i before i started back decided that this term i should try and do the no distractions thing. No chasing boys, no extra crap just concentrate on getting the grades that I'm going to need. Which went fine till about 3pm Monday, the email i mentioned in my last post. Which turned out to be the start of a fairly interesting week.

I ended up emailing back and forth with the boy and ended up visiting him on the Friday spending hours talking to him which was really nice it was sort of like we'd never really been apart and he hadn't... done what he did. It was nice. He made it fairly clear he wasn't looking for a relationship (which is good i don't know how i would have reacted otherwise). So naturally Saturday at work wasn't bad of course i kept thinking about him but i didn't see that as a sign i was in to him or anything just that its really good to be talking to him once again. It'd be fairly easy to let myself develop those sort of feelings for him. He's got this simply brilliant mind.

It was Saturday night after work that ended my week on a super confusing note. I was talking to a guy who I know through friends. He used to go out with one of my friends way back in high school and to be completely honest i can look back to my old (offline) journal and see that I actually wished I'd meet him first. But that was quickly an abandoned thought. We where never friends as such but we ran in the same circles. He and my friend broke up before the end of high school and i didn't really see him till another party near the start of last year when I was with somebody then again. When i was single and he had somebody. Always had good discussions and debates intriguing conversations but i never really considered him like he forced me to last night. After the last party we where at we started txting more often innocent friends type stuff, you know hows your day been etc. etc.I mean he has a girl friend and has for like...a year or so.

Then last night on msn messenger we ended up slipping into something that wasn't a normal friends type conversation. He ended up asking me if i liked him... "Uh...best way to put it ...if you didnt have a girlfriend .. yeah i mean... i guess its more of a wanting to get to know you better thing I mean not like...infatuated or anything you're...intriguing."
Of course i ended up asking him why he asked to which he answers "dunno. uv always intrigued me too"

Argh what the heck am i supposed to do with two guys i absolutely can not have. This is stupid. In my no distraction term. Brilliant.

So I've just spent a week in the sounds with some of my friends, well to be more exact one of my friends and his friends, who now I would probably class as my friends too. I have to say the sounds are a pretty beautiful place we had gorgeous weather which was a contrast to what people in my home city had.



What I never realized is that my friend, one of my closest friends is so...not closed minded but...disbelieving when confronted with being wrong. I never realized he had that much trouble admitting it when he was wrong. He just pfffts and moves on. It annoys me ...rather a lot.

I also got a deep heart felt apology yesterday from a boy who i haven't talked to in almost year he treated me like crap around this time last year, now he's a lecturing assistant in one of my courses (hes doing his PhD) and he sends me a...unbelievable apology. I couldn't really believe it he wants me to meet up with him so he can explain why he did what he did. I don't really know what to do to be honest I mean I sort of closed that book a while ago, you know?
I loved talking to him when we where on good terms he had this razor sharp wit that i guess isn't surprising with him as a PhD student. But he stuffed me around. A lot. I dunno. Why the hell did he email me now just when I was getting uni back on track. I guess I have to email him back and go see him cause...I think I need to know why he did what he did

So it looks like I'm gunna have to visit the dentist cause I'm in pain, that's been getting worse and worse.
God i hope he has an option to just knock me out I cant stand the dentist, in the slightest I hate it. I fear it. I'm considering not going as CJ in TWW said the pain will stop eventually...when i die. *sigh* I'm pretty unhappy about it. Oh well. Such is life i guess.
Aside from that life is pretty boring, work till Sunday and then I'm off to the sounds which should be a lot of fun...Not really sure when I'm going to fit the dentist in thinking about it. I guess once uni goes back? I dunno...
Anyway I better get some sleep.

So I've been ignoring my LJ for sometime, but I think I'm going to start to get back into it now well after my last exam (tomorrow) I've got rid of all my old-ish posts and most of my icons ready to start a fresh. Should be fun :P

Another one of the gems *grin*

Dedicate a song (or some lyrics) to:
1. Someone important in your life
Set Fire to the Third Bar - Snow Patrol,
Just cause someone is 9000 miles away doesn't mean you can't really deeply care for them.
2. Your best friend
It took me a while but
I dream Of Jeanie theme song. It's our song
3. Someone you dislike
Dear Mr President - Pink
G. W. Bush. Nuff said
4. Your parents
...Nothing could poss do them justice..But maybe
Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion for Mum, in a non romantic sense the lyrics sort of describe that I'm who I am cause she is and was who she is.
5. Your life
I'd love to say Runaway Train - Soul Asylum but I'm not that depressed yet.
Ummm Little House - The Fray
Sometime I feel like there's just a part of me no one will ever get to see

6 . A Memorable Occasion
Bon Jovi - Livin on a Prayer
Mainly  because it was the song we started singing when we jumped into the van of our opponents and started the weekend, on a brilliant note.
7 . A Disappointing Occassion
The Drugs Don't Work - The Verve
Nothing to do with drugs but...*shrugs*
And tell us why?

Since I'm a bad bad poster i decided I'd use journal gems site for some ideas, so here we go
1. When was the last time you did something for the first time?
...It'd have to be either finishing my first uni paper with a B+ or the fact until a couple of weeks ago I'd never drank till i passed out...which I'm horrified to say i did *cringe*

2. When was the last time you experienced something that made you feel stronger as a person?
I have no idea...Maybe getting an A on an assignment....or getting told I was special.

3. When was the last time you truly felt emotionally tuned in to someone else's disappointment, happiness or sadness?
Really really tuned in, probably to my mother's sadness over something to do with my dad.

4. When was the last time you bought something you really wanted?
Yesterday. I brought a new digital camera, oh i love it lol.

5. When was the last time you made a decision for your own happiness and not that of others?
...Oh gees tough call. Probably the whole Andi, JB saga

6. When was the last time you did something completely childish and enjoyed every minute of it?
Oh all the time. Skipping down the street or the pout i gave Meg lol.

7. When was the last time you just sat and watched a complete stranger and wondered what they were thinking?
On the bus this afternoon actually *grin* I'm a freak lol.